My current explorations in environment are triggered by passion. When I love, I love fully. My mother always told me, “Make sure to take care of your heart.” I never questioned her because in fact, it was very true. Many times, I’ve felt that I was finally in love, but it was just something I liked. I was blinded by a continuous fight between two thoughts, like and love. It was an ordinary day when I suddenly realized that true love was there. Ambushed by seven five-year-old students who were poking me and sweetly calling my name, “Miss Marlene, Miss Marlene,” several times, I felt the moment was just perfect. I bet you’re thinking this was a love story of how I fell in love with someone. No, there is not a man that could ever make me feel as happy as I feel when I am teaching. First of all, I don’t rely on a man or anyone else for happiness. As a very joyful individual I’ve found what sparks my happiness and I wouldn’t trade teaching for anything else. These children as I often refer to as my “kids” give me an innocent and genuine love. They may not say it in words “I love you” or “I appreciate you”, but they do know how to express it. The children I teach make me laugh and smile everyday; they bring an abundant joy into my life. More doors are opening than closing and it’s because I am driven by a passion for educating.
Continuing on, although I always pictured myself falling in love at age 30, I met my first love before I discovered my passion for teaching. Recently, I’ve been in a long distance relationship with my love, Ryan Guajudo Macasero, who left America for the Philippines to pursue his aspirations. He too fell in love with journalism. I was never looking for love it found me and I decided to open my heart to an opportunity of falling in love. It will be our first anniversary on October 4, 2013. It’s not what you try to find, but what finds you along the way. The feeling is right and I know the difference between liking and being in love. When you fall in love with what you are doing it feels natural. There is never a feeling of hesitation. Moreover, it took me several attempts to finally realize that teaching was for me. From wanting to attend art school to actually shadowing my dentist at her office. My journey in discovering my passion was long, but it only took me back to my days as a child. It was during playtime with my siblings and neighbors that I would create little notebooks with scraps of lined paper for everyone to write on. Everyone would then face me and there I stood confident little “Miss Marlene” playing the role of a teacher. Now, when I stand in front of a classroom the feeling is just lovely, especially when students are actively participating in class. My passion for empowering young minds through education makes every minute worthwhile.
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